Déjà vu

I know I'm not cut out for it, subconsciously or otherwise. I can't express it when I have it and, of course, I want it when I don't. But all of this stems from one basic problem - emotions. Chemical brain states that alter our behavior, favoring one brain state over another for a "feeling". I won't even mention the illusions. The younger version of me hated these brain states with a passion (pardon the pun) because they cause weakness because they do alter your behavior without your best interest in mind, only the perpetuation or negation of one particular brain state. But now I'm not so sure. I'm also not so sure how many times I'll go through this same process, same exact thing only with a different name. Isn't that what life is, though? We do strive for the new and fresh, but I didn't think I was that particular way, I just thought I was picky.

I'm not a bad person, really. Maybe from a general standpoint, but personally, I happen to think I'm very good. But I come off so bad when I'm doing things differently than in the past that did cause harm. Maybe it's different for every case? I don't want to necessarily give up on this one though. But maybe I like this case because of the brain state, I liked the previous cases when now I don't..... is it just a matter of perspective? Justification of how reality is now? If life is full of this kind of subjective reality, how can you every know what's right and wrong? But if I try, I'll feel worse. Because it probably won't work. Even now, it would be too weird, things would never be right. And this would have never happened if..... I think I have the solution now. Of course, this is for future cases, but not the pending case.

I think I know what to do now.

Competition

I know we are generally a competition driven species. We seek to one up our fellow man to get more money, attention, fame, power, what have you. But why are some people so focused on others? I saw this a lot in school, mostly with kids (and immature adults), they gossip, they create and spread rumors, just to put down someone to elevate themselves, if only in their minds. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy the occasional bashing of those that I think are inferior, but such a systematic approach, a routine of this, I just don't understand. Consumed with appearances, reputation, competition, but not even for any end game, just for a self satisfying boost. Maybe it's because I think that too many people do not deserve the honor of my constant hate, but I think that is not a way to go because when everyone is gone, how will you manage life then?

Definition By Occupation

Society, as I think it is per our nature, has hierarchies based on marketability. Whether you know it or not, everything is predicated on marketability and what can sell, or rather, what can be made off of something else. And with that, comes people who can only see someone else's marketable traits, for more than just business. For instance, say you were walking one day and you've been walking for awhile and you were tired, so you sat under a bridge or something, just resting and a homeless man wandered over to you. Would you talk to him? Barring him maybe being dangerous because of the mental instability of these folks, but let's say that he is recently homeless because of the economy or something and hasn't had a chance to reach out to his family or there was something up. My main point is, he isn't crazy, nor is he dumb. In fact, he is your type of person. And he lives around you... in fact, anywhere around you, haha. But joking aside, would you associate with him? You get along with him great, he is funny and can give you intelligent conversations. Now, everyone who isn't a stuck up snob (there is one of you out there and you know who you are), would say you would talk to him, but that's bullshit. I can't say what I would do, or if anything, the mere fact that I would think this up would mean I probably would be more inclined to befriend this downtrodden fellow, but saying without proving is the easiest thing in the world. Most people wouldn't because he has no title, he has no marketability, or at the very least, he has no easy opportunities. And that's how people think. People say "Yeah, my name is Bob, and I'm a senior accountant" they use it to present their authority, whatever it is. And, if you have status, you look down on anyone who doesn't have status, regardless of whether you are conscious of it or not.

I realized this this year that not everyone is the same. We aren't all given the proper opportunity and some of us don't even have marketable skills or, if we did, we never knew about them, so they never manifested. To someone crazy successful without having a successful, it's just a quirky set of circumstances that led them to that point. "Well, why don't you just work hard and you'll get good opportunities?" It's because it doesn't work like that. We just can't be held to the same standard because our situations are different. But I'm not trying to quibble about financial circumstances, my main point is, you shouldn't judge people on marketable merits, especially for personal reasons. In having a good time and interesting conversations, everyone is equal opportunity there.

Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of I'll Do Whatever the Fuck I Want To

The running theme of what I say about the human mind (or just sentient beings in general, but that would be pushing emotions on all sentient beings, which may not be the case) and the way we think is we can only think in terms of our personal perspective. That's why there are such misunderstandings and such arguments are petty things in the world, because we can't understand each other's perspectives and situations. Everyone seems to be judging me on the basis of what they think is the right thing to do for my situation because of what they have already seen before. The thing that EVERYONE forgets is I'm not like anyone else. I think in a such a way that is vastly different from at least most of the people I'll meet. So projecting this ideal onto me is pointless, because my end goal is not your end goal. Most people want a few things: comfort, prestige,money, and legacy. Oh and sex, but let's exclude that for now. And people I want that too, but I don't. I couldn't care less about legacy because I'll be dead, so so fucking what. I don't care about prestige because people find many reasons not to like you, or to like you, and I don't want that to be why I am interesting or someone to be around, is because of what I've done, or the last thing, my money.

People see in me what they would see in anyone else in my position who wasn't me. That invalidates their position because they are judging me on a scale that is no applicable to me. That would like if I was a dog and there was a cat in front of me. If I don't attack the cat, everyone will think I'm a failure, see? I don't care about attacking the cat, my values are different. Maybe I want to go lick my butt, I don't know, but just because I don't do the one thing that you want me to do, or do it fast enough, doesn't make me a failure. It just makes me something you can't possibly understand. And people want to be able to understand things easily. Put something incomprehensible in front of them and they will deny it's viability because they can't understand it.

I don't want the same things as you. If we switched roles, there is a possibility I wouldn't do what you would do. If you judge people, judge them on their actions and their words, not their inaction or the lacking of pleasing you. The next time you see someone and think "What a waste, they could have done so much" examine what mechanisms make you think that is the clear plan for everyone, not just what you personally hold dear.

Dating

I don't know what makes me different in this area than others. I know I'm not the only and it's a frequent trait among the "minority". This whole courting, dating, and mating ritual that we have nowadays. It seems to me that relationships of that sort are just filler for some.... reason or another that is not directly tied to the individual they choose. People look at it like a necessity, like a job or a car or a home. Like if you don't have one, there's something wrong with YOU. Could be evolutionary, could be social norms, I don't know. But we have left the arranged marriages and brides as peace offerings and bribes (at least in the West). Instead, we have this culture who is obsessed with who is sleeping with who. It's so hardwired and ingrained into people that it's not even a thought to consider why they think it's such a negative attribute, it would go against people's logic.

If it weren't so stigmatized, our culture and scientific progress would greatly advance. It holds us back, it's biology, simple instincts. Maybe I have this particular viewpoint because I am solitary, I believe people are burdens that get in the way of progress, individuals get in the way of YOUR progress. People drop good jobs, good opportunities, all because of some fake emotional bond that can be replaced in a week. Human ignorance and selfishness will always rule out in competition with reason and logic. I'm not proposing a business model that everyone should follow, just that chasing romance like it's some kind of goal is the wrong way to go about it..... for long lasting love and attraction that is. They spend all their time, when single, chasing it, they forget that sometimes, things come to you. Don't think these a musings from a loser, I have.... moderate appeal in this area. But that's just it. I'm not looking for a role holder or something to screw to give me some kind of arbitrary meaning. If I happen to find someone that I click with and love enough for that, fantastic. But I certainly won't chase it, not for society, not for biology, not for loyalty and not for honor. Maybe I achieve greatness someday and people see my example, one can only hope. But if it's being a pariah versus sharing a bed with brainless troglodytes, guess I fulfill my satisfaction for a solitary existence.

Knowing Vs. Hoping

There's a lot of things about this world I don't like. I don't like how corruption is prevalent in any hierarchical structure, especially with one vast enough to encompass thousands of employees (I'm not an advocate of smaller government, though). I don't like how romanticized ideals of how romantic relationships should go, and when that fades, everyone accepts that it was inevitable. I don't like the idea that pricks seem to be the most ahead in life, but squander it more than others. I don't like how you have to choose between been successful (rather, being perceived as successful and accomplishing a lot) and living a life you want (for those who lives don't revolve around their work). I don't like the fact that faith is lauded in the face of evidence and reasoned arguments. I don't like that some truths and facts that seem like basic ideas to me, escape those wiser or smarter than me. I don't like the best of our kind doesn't feel like they are worth anything, because they don't conform to the ideal set forth. There are a lot of things about this world I do not like, but accept these things as fact. Just because you don't like something doesn't make it not true. It's a sentiment I see a lot from people, where if they just ignore a problem, it no longer exists.

People need to understand the reality we live in. Things about human nature, social behavior, etc. We've conquered the planet, now we need to conquer our own understanding of ourselves. I wish I could see if these behaviors are solely attributed to human beings, or if they are sentient qualities. What I wouldn't give to know such answers. But I don't and, as much as I don't like something, it doesn't make it not true. Does accepting these things make me bitter? Perhaps.  The optimistic often seem hopeful, right? They *hope* things get better or something will happen. Most hope that a higher power intervenes, which is the most pointless thing in the world, because hoping non-existent creatures intervene is hoping against knowing. I see the world as it is, as reality has been demonstrated to me in all my experiences. And all this shit is now becoming too predictable.

God: Unknowable Variable; People: Knowable Asshats

I always hear this from the Christians "Don't judge Christianity on the interpretation of people" which is stupid, because they turn right around and call Islam evil because of al-Qaeda, Taliban, and Hamas. That generally hypocrisy is too obvious to point out. But what I say is that, okay so we can't know if a god exists, what he wants, how he judges, etc. We can't know about God, but we can know about the people who follow. My contention with religion is not that it is unprovable and nobody should follow, it's the acts that are carried out (and sanctioned by military powers) in the name of it. Did the Crusades prove or disprove God? No, it proved that religious fanatics are assholes. Take any organization. Would you judge it solely on its leader and that's it? What if you judged countries solely on their leaders? Would that make any sense?

I don't care what it says in the sacred texts or what the leaders profess or what they say God put into our morality. It's about what people do either because of or justify because of it. Hell, if people killed because of a Care Bear book, I would hate that, even though it says positive things. Qu'ran, Bible, Torah, whatever your brand of crazy religion is, it's not what it says, it's what people do because of it.

Tribe Mentality

People like to group themselves together, by virtually anything. Race, nationality, spoken language, ideology, or even the weakest form, biological ties. I can't stand this tribe mentality where people don't have to be accountable for anything, it's only a matter of which tribe you belong to. "Doesn't matter if he did anything wrong, he's my brother (tribe member)" it's stupid, irresponsible and only promotes divisive hatred and abhorrence. I keep saying this, people are stupid. On a whole. Individuals can be smart, but society as a whole, is irresponsible, stupid, emotional, and any other negative aspect I can tact on to this. It's only by the grace of smarter individuals who separate themselves from the common rabble who push us forward.

Liberal Commie Rant

I hear all this talk from the right (and some from the left too) about big government and how we should reign in big government spending. If any of those sitting congressman voted for earmarks or "junk" amendments in bills, they should shut the fuck up, no matter how much it cost. They attribute this to Obama, like before him, the government was very meager and small, and that each state was its own colony or something. It's really pathetic, considering the expansion of the government by Bush, in the name of "defending freedoms".  I always wonder what Gore would have done if he was president instead. Would we have invaded Afghanistan? It's probable. Would we have invaded Iraq? Hell no. Haha, expanding the government..... who blew up the budget for TWO conflicts? It seems that the people who are screaming "STOP BIG GOVERNMENT" think that the world would be something like the world of Equilibrium. The government can be the regulators, the refs to make sure the corporations aren't cutting corners for bigger profits. Fucking hell, that's why we have checks and balances and freedom of speech.

Also, I want to ask these people who say Obama is taking away their freedoms (not like Bush who took away your Fourth Amendment rights, or what the conservatives are now saying we should abolish the 14th Amendment), which freedoms is he taking away? It's not a trick gotcha question, I am genuinely curious which rights and freedoms he's taking away. If anything, he's giving MORE freedoms. Although, on healthcare, he basically let the insurance companies get between you and your doctor. OMG, I said it! Really, people get denied coverage for the dumbest shit and you say Obama would decide who gets healthcare or not? If you are angry with Obama on that he *might* have done, you had better be pissed as hell that the insurance companies are *actually* doing it. And on government spending, what is he supposed to do? If he had a sack on him and really cared about spending, he would cut the defense budget in half, at least. I never understood the concept "fight them over there so they don't come over here". What, like a presence in those countries won't drive them to OTHER countries and even here. How do you tell a Taliban from a normal citizen? You have to work at the root problem, which is recruitment, not an entire people.

Back to spending, this stupid free market "the markets will regulate themselves" is BULLSHIT. Imagine a football game without refs. You would have linebackers taking off the quarterback's head and it's the same in the financial market. Straight socialism doesn't work, straight capitalism doesn't work, so you have to find a balance between the two. And also, capitalism and socialism aren't mutually exclusive. You can have a government with deep social programs and still have the private sector, coinciding. It's the fringe people who have a vested interest in keeping the people ignorant, angry, and fearful of complex ideas they can't understand, that is keeping this country polarized. Oh, and by the way, I am glad Prop 8 was overturned because the people are WRONG. Popular opinion doesn't always mean it's right. A straight majority rules system would be disastrous and dangerous for everyone.

"Get a Life"

Anyone who utters this seriously is, at least close-minded, and at best, dangerous depending on how they act upon saying that. We all think that there is one way to live and that's the only way, and if it's a way we like, we assume everyone who doesn't live that way, WANTS to live that way. This is best seen from the invasion of Iraq, the excuse we are "giving" them democracy, because we can't imagine a way to live without it. People live their lives on very different basis. Some people live their lives on the basis of religion and adhering to those beliefs. Some live to make the most money, even that can be separated to those who do it to support their families (i.e. lower class) or just for the pure love of being rich and blowing money. Some live based on what they can best do for humanity, while others want to live selfishly and just do things that are fun to them (i.e. partiers). Some live to learn as much as they can or some just live, with varying degrees of all of these lifestyles. The next time you hear "get a life", just think of all the lives that ignorant moron can't conceive of.

Distractions

"Life is pain" is not only an emo cliche, it actually makes sense. Much of our lives consist of taking some sort of risk with as close as a gain equivalent to the risk. Like going to work or school. I'm positive that the majority of people would want to skip those parts and just reap the benefits, but obviously this is impossible, or more often times, the closest thing to that is illegal. So we bear these responsibilities for the gains we get - work = money and school = opportunities for work. Also, let me state  I'm not in this camp of my profession defining me. Maybe if I had more opportunities, I would be much prouder of a profession to ascribe that label to me, but as it stands, I do not.

We do what we have to to live. Most people who have blue collar or jobs that are menial or not specialized don't often enjoy their work. So to ease their stressful mind off of not living the life they want, they must have distractions. Things that generally make them forget or that override that foreboding feeling. I found now, even as I am temporarily living the life where I choose my activities, day to day (not on any government welfare program, just chose not to partake in our "great" capitalist system and instead, saved my money for this time) and although I still am conscious of the responsibilities coming soon, it's generally off my mind as it is far off, yet I find myself still getting distressed at things, little things. Things I can't necessarily explain, but they had a bad mood, just a dreadful feeling. As long as I continue to remember that I have this awful emotion, not remembering the particular thing that invoked it, just the feeling, it will perpetuate. Distractions do help.

If you are brought down, find a way to temporarily bring you out of the routine in which caused the bad mood. Distract.

Purgatory

Ever since I became self aware at 16, I've always this vision of how the afterlife would truly be if it were possible. And no, I call on no divine being to dream it up for us, nor is this even spiritual or religious (or emotional). The one thing that has been a problem with me for a long time is that my conscious and my subconscious - "conscience" if you will - are constantly at war. See, I do have a morality that was taught to me and that I learned, that through cooperation, we achieve 'x' times more progression than alone (x = how many people are involved). But I also know that I cannot live for the group, that I have to do things in my best interest, and my best interests, especially in the long term, are not that of the group's best interest. So that causes a short of riff between the waking me you see everyday and the other side that surfaces when my conscious mind is too busy or is "out". Anyway, on the afterlife.

I think that the thing that would cause this afterlife is nothing more than our own minds and imaginations. Using the first law of thermodynamics (matter and energy cannot be created or destroyed), I am inferring that consciousness cannot be destroyed, but changes into something else. To deal with this new change (and subsequent lack of a physical presence), it goes back to its life on Earth.
Basically, I think that, if you led a good and virtuous life, you will imagine up a paradise where all your friends and family live or what have you. Your mind will be "pure", as dictated by itself, and therefore you will want to reward yourself, as a result. Conversely, if you had a lot of regret and guilt over the things you did, you may enter a sort of nightmare world, filled with things to punish yourself with. Either way, you get the consequence you feel you deserved. I think I came to this conclusion after hearing "At least I can sleep at night" too many times. Could you ever do so much wrong as you deprive yourself of sleep or food, in some cases? Not consciously, but subconsciously, your body taking cues from your "conscience". I think it's a fair question and whether or not this is a possibility for the afterlife, I don't know.

I'm sure I'm not the first person to think this up and maybe somewhere, there is an actual name for this idea, maybe it's in a book or something. But think about it.

I Hate Hot Chicks: Partie Trois

I recently came into contact with a "hot chick" and most of my assumptions based on a purely observational perspective seem to ring true. I don't know how it is for the rest of them, but this one lived in a bubble, she didn't see that her life was affected negatively or positively by her condition. Although based on her actions, I am led to believe that she is, in fact, an anomaly, but still present was a lack of a personality (or not fully formed personality), a clear sense of entitlement and rejection of a reality that was not consistent with which the one she wanted, and an air-headed like state. It was through my interactions that I realized that it does more than affect one's confidence - it fundamentally changes the way a person thinks and how they are treated. It's like they are a different race, literally. Ha, and if it was a race, well, you can call me a racist. I'm just amazed, it literally doesn't matter outside of their appearance of attractiveness. I'm not saying they are all stupid, but there's... a lack of three-dimensional being. They can be intelligent, they can be scientists and entrepreneurs or whatever, but there's just something about it that doesn't allow them to fully experience all of thinking. It's hard to explain, as you can see.

Now I want to break down MY definitions of beautiful and "hot". Beauty, as they say, IS in the eye of the beholder. It's a completely subjective thing, not beholden to any standard than outside of one's perception. However "hot" is much different. I can't explain hot, I can't explain how someone is hot or what makes them hot, but we all know what "hot" is. We all know these really attractive "hot" people, we can, even if not entirely consciously, we can identify them with nothing more than a glance. Beautiful, like I said, could be anything. One person who I would find beautiful, another would not. But we both would find a hot person.... well, hot. It's an indication of genetics and healthiness, that's an inherently sought after trait that we might not even be aware of. But one thing is certain - beautiful girls are beautiful .... but I DO hate hot chicks.

The Me, I, and You

What makes you you? What characteristics are distinct to your personality? I've never gotten this sort of sense of self-definition, moral or values, etc. That's not like selfishness or looking out for one's own best interest, I get that very easily. Like Christians for instance, their values and ideals tend not to change for long periods of time, their very views and opinions don't seem to change. Maybe it's a personality thing, the type that draws them to this logic. My main point about this is, there is no you.  You are a product of genetics, your environment, your parental guidance and ultimately, just a victim of events of consequence and chance. It's hard to reconcile this with your ego, say there is no you, only a canvas that, because of the colors aligned in a certain way, makes that distinct picture (artist analogy, but frankly if you didn't get that, you probably won't understand any of this post, so why am I bothering to write this?).

It's like logic that says Christians are only Christians because they were brought up in a culture in which the spooky religious, spiritual, communal tradition is that of Christianity... predominantly. If they lived in a predominantly Muslim culture, or Buddhist culture, or Hindi culture, and so on.

What forms consciousness? This questions ultimately are only good for "food for thought" as they say, as either way they go, it has no impact on any lives. So if we're just blank cattle, so what? And if we truly are individuals within our communities.... so what? I've often pondered the question that if you could take the same exact same set of genes and "raise" them in every culture, to see what the results would be. Would there be characteristics that are unique enough to be called distinct across all incarnations of these genes, or would they all be different? There is absolutely no way to do this experiment, as raising a child is not just a culture, it's also the parents, people, economic situation, etc. It's fun to think about. Think of the core of you. What experience, if any, made you who you are? I come from a very unique situation... my memory, conscious memory anyway (just when I don't focus on remembering), is absolutely atrocious, so I tend to forget my positions on certain issues, maybe that makes me more susceptible to other viewpoints because I'm essentially a fairly blank state to begin with. But for "normal" people with normal functioning memories, why do you people stay the same for so long? I change every 6 months or so, on at least 30-40% of whatever I'm thinking, priorities, what's important, etc. I couldn't imagine holding the same views on something before and after hearing a lot of evidence on it. We don't learn everything at once, we take lots of information from different sources, just boggles me that anyone who keeps up with the times would remain stagnant in views and opinions.

Anyway, the events around us make us different and unique, we have no intrinsic uniqueness... unless you believe in an intelligent creator.

Destroying Complacency

While I was in Comic Con, I seen a lot of people. A lot of different varieties of this human brand. As I walked onto the floor (the exhibition floor), as it was cluttered with bodies, I thought.... how easy would it be to walk in with a briefcase bomb, set it, slide it under a table and walk out? Before you think I'm an evil bastard, just set aside your morality. Everyone likes to shake things up, everyone likes drama. Everyone likes variety. The September attacks on the WTC in 2001, I really enjoyed that. Look at the backlash of what a handful of regular people did. It sent the world into a panic. It did sooo much. Even now, it's so grand, people think it's a government conspiracy. As much as I abhor their motives, I like their actions. You can't talk and make things different, you have to do things. Blowing up the SDCC would rattle a lot of cages. I'm sure I would be caught, they would investigate the attendees who survived and I'd probably leave the smallest of trails but enough to be picked up. But I would change something.

Imagine politicians, fuck, imagine Mr. Change Obama. What has he done? Nothing, or.. rather, I should say, very little. But what could a vigilante do? What could a handful of Arabs do? More than the fucking president of the most powerful nation. THAT'S the power of action. Bureaucracy be damned.

Unconcious Preference Vs. Conscious Choice

Sometimes, I think about all the things in life that we choose. Professions, friends, things to do, things to buy, things NOT to buy, the life you want to lead. In a perfect world, every single thing we do would be driven by a conscious choice that we make. But it's not. The first thing we have no control over, I think anyway, is morality. For a lot of people, morality is not a thought, it's just... what it is. Morality is a tenuous thing, but to people like me, morality and logic must be in balance. For most, it is not.
Also, the things we like.... they aren't always a conscious thing that we think about. I think, depending on how our childhood went, we will automatically like certain things versus others, because of nostalgia. You like it simply because of a memory, not for what it is. It is preferenced.

Another thing is intimate friends, people with whom you share very intimate details of your life, opening them up to scrutiny. One would think it's a choice, you choose the best candidates, but this isn't true. For the most part, this is in regards to romantic relationships, where there are constant breakups because of one of the party's errors, possibly on purpose and not in favor of the mutual relationship. Why does the opposing party accept them back? Outside of desperation, there isn't a conscious choice there. It's an unconscious preference based on..... well, it's individual in every case and even then, hard to spot. But things just go right for some reason, so the opposing parties joins ties again. So do we choose? Can we choose? Does it even matter?
I don't think we do choose, I think it's preference, it's something our psyche or conscience or whatever decides and slowly manipulates our conscious decision-making brain to accept it and rationalize it.

I'll be honest, this is a bit depressing. Not that people lie, but you can't know if there is some unconscious preference they have for you or if it's "genuine". Just another thing to make life that more complicated.

Cosmological Struggle: Bible Is Just Propaganda Against Satan

What if Satan and Yahweh are not who they seem? What if Satan was not a fallen angel, but, like Yahweh, a creator of sorts? It seems in lot of the dead religions, good versus evil had equal forces, thus both could exist separately. That is not the case with Christianity, Yahweh allows Satan to exist and be evil.... for whatever purpose, but that's not the point of this. What if they are just two sides of the same coin?
Here's my idea:

Now, firstly, I don't know how they came about, but I'll assume there was a whole race of people like Yahweh and Satan, who for the purposes of this story has the exact same powers as Yahweh, and that they either died out or are given divisions above "garden" or life sustaining planets of inferior and primitive species. Satan and Yahweh were given Earth to have domain over. Now, with this theory I can't explain much..... but I'll just do the Christian thing and say that my finite, limited, mortal brain can't even possibly conceive of the glory of Yahweh and Satan. What I want to focus on here is the book and how it intentionally treats Satan as an inferior creature, even though he has the opposite "job" of God and that's maintaining Hell (personally, I think that, in the context of the accepted idea of God, he just couldn't be bothered with the upkeep in Hell, especially since he's used to dealing with the very exclusive ELITIST club of Heaven). It's just propaganda.

See, they say Hell is an evil place where you will burn for eternity and is hot and basically appeals to the fears and emotions of the weak-minded. Fire, which was still a remarkable discovery in those days, is magical and symbolizes burning and the pain that goes along with it. Also of the most excruciating pain you've ever felt..... without saying how or why. Yet it's infinite, we cannot die, but pain is basically "killing" the body, so this doesn't make sense. But I digress. What if it's just Yahweh writing propaganda against his competitor? You see this between the same businesses in a particular region. Attack ads and such. The duties of Satan, maybe they don't allow for him to speak to people or interact, thus Yahweh can make him seem as he pleases.

Also, look at what God has you do to get into Heaven. I bet 95% percent of Christians won't get in, at least 30% on ONE mistake, alone. All that praying and praising and preaching..... to an egotistical maniac. And when you get there, you're the only person you know there! Yet what are the qualifications for going to Hell? Doing stuff, taking risks, making advancements, fuck, even enjoying life will get you there. What if Hell merely symbolizes reality as we know it? What if Hell is just another "club" like Heaven? Ha, even on the occupants alone, I'd rather be in Hell than Heaven. But notice how first, Hell is not descript, just described as an appeal to emotion, also the huuuuuge list of things NOT to do to get into Heaven, and also how many of your friends and family most likely, won't make it to the Yahweh's jerkfest in the clouds.

Bonus note: What if Satan corrupted the message of Heaven? I mean, the qualifications are impossible to be held, by a mortal, normal being but he couldn't just say Hell is cool, maybe that would be breaking some cosmological pact that the deities made. Instead he has to vaguely say how bad Hell is to sort of equal it out.

Hmmm, something to think about.

Aesthetics Vs. Practicality

One of the major differences that separate man from the rest of nature is our emphasis on aesthetics, on things looking or being presented in a certain way. Literally, things just looking, sounding, basically everything involved with the presentation as being more than the actual substance, itself. One of the most common examples you'll recognize, for all the girls, is the emphasis on "looking good". Makeup, hair, fashionable clothing and shoes, merely looking right, with little to do on the substance (i.e. your mind). Another example is looking fat as opposed to being healthy. If you look skinny, then you aren't fat, but a fat person running a mile straight is still less "in shape" than the skinny guy who cannot run a mile straight. It's this obsession that, of course, I disagree with. But you can account for my bias because my presentation of my personal appearance is significantly less than that of my peers. "Looks are everything" a motto for every young generation. I see the appeal because it is less effort to assert something to looking good, as opposed to it actually being good.

Think about the daily bits of your life. How much of it is based on superficial aesthetics, as opposed to less effort but it be visually unappealing? It's shocking how much is pure looks.

Art & Classical Music

I never understood art. Just to be absolutely clear, I'm not talking about it in its broadest sense, just classical art, I suppose, sculptures, art museums, art galleries, that sort of thing. It's just an object, it's just some.... thing. No value at all, it's something that can't be used for any practical purpose, it's entirely worthless, in my opinion. I mean, for paintings and sculptures, you look at it and then what? It's gone, out of your mind.. or at least, out of my mind. While I'm a fan of interpretation (because the mind is so vast and unique, two people could see the same thing and see two different things, all about perception) but people selling art for all this vast sort of money, just to say you're "cultured"? No, it's completely pointless to me. Especially abstract art. Throw a bunch of splotches of paint on a canvas and make me interpret it? Hell no, paint something with value, with a message, and then I might pay attention. All that classic art... it's boring, pretentious, and pointless.

Classical music is much the same, but audibly, of course. Someone told me that classical, you just "feel" it, the tones, the scales, the instruments. I just don't see it like that. There's no message. And any message in the songs or chords or whatever, you have to look it up, you can't hear it through the song. Once again, it's a matter of being "cultured". I don't feel the need to inflate my importance, by saying I appreciate art and classical, because I don't. Don't get me wrong, I'm all about emotions in songs (and even without intelligible lyrics, such as Ag20 by Blood Stain Child, that's a song I "feel"), but I guess my perception is different. Metal pleases my ears, gives me all the satisfaction from music that I want. Also I have a bone to pick with those people who say "I like all kinds of music" but in a different post.

Art and classical have no value, but due to their longevity (for whatever reason), they have become the bastion for intellectual pretentiousness, for just having the "cultured" banner. I think it's a load of crap and the social and financial gain is all that is benefited, two things I don't give a shit about.

Why Religion Should Be Mocked

I often take a lot of crap from people - atheists and theists alike - that I should "respect" religion more. Well, I don't because it doesn't fit into my morals or values. Same thing with family. The majority of people would put some sort of bond or connection to their other family members, because of "blood". But why? They share genetic lineage but what else? A lot of people's values and morals -especially traditionalists- comes from some law or way of living in the past that has no bearing on now. For instance, marriage widely came about from warring tribes making alliances, or an ensured genetic heritage for a man, which had a lot more value then than in modern culture. Hell, love was put into it later, much later, from the English. I'm not going to go into each little tradition, but you get my point. You have to live with the times and in today's world - quote "age of reason" - religion is losing more and more creditability. Let's use the family analogy. You look at your mother - your religion - with fondness because of it's all you ever know. But to me, your mother - your brand of fairy tale - is just another ordinary, insignificant human to me.

You have your brand of highly improbably circumstances, yet you think because so many people fawn over the ever-lasting life and "morality" taught, that it should be respected as a creditable idea? That's insane. Flying Spaghetti Monster is exactly a good example of what I'm talking about. Theists will laugh and scoff at that being a credible idea, but go back to their brand of Bronze Age fairy tales, like it's gospel (quite literally!) and have absurd claims to back it up.

I don't respect religion because I wouldn't respect a church of Dr. Seuss or the Congregation of Mother Goose. They're fables and imaginative stories created at a time before knowledge was able to spread, en masse, and a lot of the advances we know today, were not. Or some, like Scientology, are intentionally put out just malicious take advantage of people, while I think most in Christianity or Islam maybe not, as that is far more "spiritually" driven. I find the notion absurd because they didn't have the explorers, philosophers, scientists, and the knowledge we have gained in the 2000 years since is so extraordinary, you cannot even fathom what life was like back then. To actually live it.

I will continue to mock and laugh at Christianity, Islam, Scientology, Hinduism and any other religion that preaches whimsical stories for profit or power. They're fucking absurd stories, people. If you can't understand that, there's no need for me to acknowledge you as any kind of equal being to myself, intellectually.